If you really want to ’be’ and ’own’ yourself and do only what you know you want and can have - then you will want to be Clear* (rid of the negative part of the mind, not the brain, that causes a persons unwanted emotions and reactions to things). And then you will not have what you don’t want, and you’ll be able to shift things around so that doesn’t happen anymore. And before I could do that - to be able to ask and talk to anyone about something I really wanted, resulted in a big panic and a breaking out in sweat - I got ill even contemplating it.

     Then I became Clear and - Wallop!!!!

     That horrible thing was gone forever and ever and ever!!!

     If you want it it’s yours.

* Clear: A being who no longer has his own reactive mind. (Reactive Mind: that part of a person's mind which is not under his volitional control and which exerts force and the power of command over his awareness, purposes, thoughts, body and actions.)